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Yeaah. My host upgraded their php version. Which screwed up my database. I was using an old version of wordpress and so apparently this didn’t gel so badly, that my blog dissapeared from bloggersphere. However, I have upgraded wordpress and updated the database and all is well, as you can see. …hopefully. With a new theme, too. You can probably expect this to change now and then.
Now, I have a few real life updates to make, but I’ll do that some other time… as its cold and my nipples are about to drop off, yes. Just incase anyone was wondering what happened.

Some images may not work anymore along with some links. I probably won’t bother fixing them. They’re out of date or un-important anyway. Like my previous post [Make up review] the images no longer work.

Nice to have you back. My… probably about 4 readers that aren’t bots.

Make up Review

L’Oreal True Match Foundation

Firstly, the price, £9.99? NOT worth it. This has to have been the worst foundation I have ever tried, and I have tried a fair few. Honestly.

I tried a tester on my hand, though in a different colour as they didn’t have mine. Yes, hands are differen’t colour to your face anyway, but you have no idea how long those testers have been sitting in there, and how many airborne germs are in there, waiting to ruin your face. The colour might not be right, but don’t use testers on your face, unless they just put out a fresh one. If you’re unsure of what shade would suit you, kindly ask shop staff to open a new one. It is not worth the damage to your face, even if it seems good. And of course, if it looks filthy and icky… well we all know testers get this way, but like you don’t want to touch it? Then don’t touch it! The tester worked well on my hand, despite being a differen’t shade, bit darker, it was roughly the same colour as my hand, as my hands are darker than my face. So it worked out. It blended, the coverage seemed pretty decent, so I decided to grab myself one in my shade. Rose Ivory.

I got it home and couldn’t wait to try it out. HUGE disaster. The coverage? Horrific. No amount of attempting to blend could get rid of the streakyness and it just *sat* on top of my skin. “Matches the colour and texture of your skin” the bottle says.

No. Whatever colour is in the bottle, comes out of the bottle. It does not blend, it does not change. Super blendable perfecting foundation, my ass!

Texture? Oh yes! It definatley matches the texture of your skin! If you have any mild lines, it sure does make sure to keep that all in tact and show them off! If you have dry skin, or porus looking skin, it makes sure to show that off, too! You only need to use a little bit to make yourself look like a caked up clown!

But hey, on the flipside, it can give me smoother looking hands

Seriously. Nothing good about this foundation. High price, low quality!

Would I recommend it to a friend? If they wanted to experiment with setting make up on fire, maybe.

This might import from my blog to facebook… or probably will. So if you’re reading this on facebook, you might as well stop now, because you’re probably not going to like it. So me saying that, you’ll probably read it anyway, and leave a smart arsed comment in reply. I will do my best to ignore it if you do so. Unless you have a mature, well thought out response, relative to the article.

PERMALINK: http://blog.talei-uno.com/2010/01/24/lulz

A blog is a blog, an only log, journal, diary, for ones personal thoughts and feelings, its even hosted on my own webspace, so I’m more than entitled to them. Nobody says you have to agree, but you won’t change my thoughts. Its a waste of time to try. Nobody says you have to click and read, you can carry on with your daily life and all will be well.  You’re entitled to your own opinion, and type it if you wish, doesn’t mean I’m going to pay attention to it though. ;] Just like you don’t have to do to mine. If you want to, well then that is just swell, but I lose nor gain anything if you don’t. My blog is just to express my personal feelings, so that I shall do.

Should I say it now or later?

Told ya so.

I’ve had pretty much everything I’ve been thinking over these past few days, proven to me. Handed out like milk and cookies at Christmas today. Ohhh the joys of being right is damn fabulous. Though I do feel slightly shameful for admitting it.

Thanks twitter friends who’ve shown me the loveliness in the world. <3 Good people do exist. You just have to look. “little penguin of love” haha, thanks Liloo [@tsunimee on twitter] I imagined that in your French accent and everything. :p

And thanks for the others, who I won’t mention names, because they’ll whine at me, who have provided me with lulz. But you guys know who you are.

Its also amazing how despite everything, some people can be horribly immature. I was talking to this 34 year old canadian today, and she was acting like someone else I know, of my own age.

So it proves, age is but a number.

My newest… I say friend, Jay, is 52 years old, and he commented that he feels like hes talking to someone of his own generation. I seem to get along better with older people, and this concerns me slightly. I don’t understand my own generation, the teenagers. I genuinely don’t get it. Sometimes I get called the group “mother” and sometimes I get called uptight, and told I should just get drunk like everyone else. But I don’t get it? I don’t understand what is so awesome about people getting drunk and not being able to remember the previous night, throwing up everywhere and inconviniencing other people. Some people do dumb shit and sometimes its hillarious, but some people get seriously hurt and that isn’t funny and it isn’t a joke. I just don’t understand the appeal of damaging your liver and not knowing who the fuck is lying next to you when you wake up. Okay. So maybe this makes me uptight. I just genuinely do not get it.

Danni brought about the faith in humanity project to peoples attention… and it didn’t take long before my points were in minus numbers. I don’t know what this means for me, for having so little faith in people, but I’m so used to watching things crumble before my eyes without being able to do a thing. Where is humanity going wrong? Maybe it should start from scratch? Why is everything so contraversial. Why do people have to annoy others because they’re bored [ASBOs] and scare the life out of the eldery… and other people who’re not even elderly! Why should people feel the need to live life in fear because of anothers’ actions? They shouldn’t. One persons actions should not affect another, but it is impossible in the human race.

People can’t keep themselves to themselves. They can’t ignore chavs and just walk on by, and not surprisingly! They’re likely to yell at the person(s) walking past or worse! Why do these people feel the need to disturb the pedestrian? By what do they achieve? Why do people have to pick fights over small things, like whats for dinner, which way to walk home, what shop to visit first? Control. Why do people feel the need to control others more than themselves. Why try and control other people when they can’t even engage in a little self control? The human race does not make any sense.  Nor do I think I will ever. And that may just drive me barmy, because I hate realizing things, but not being able to figure out the cause for the effect. It took me a while to realize it, but when I realized how much it effects you, being out of the loop from day to day life [when I had to drop out of school and ended up bed bound thanks to my health] I realized that I don’t like to know things, but not understand them, to not get the whole picture or know the whole story.

I guess I found one of my weak points. Haha. And I’ve just told it to the world, but ya know, I don’t care. By now, I’m used to being left out of the loop, and I know who my real friends are. I won’t forget the people who stayed in contact when I was confined to my bed. Ever. And I will never forget those who ran away or never bothered. I may do forgiving, but I don’t do forgetting. And people wonder why I don’t trust and/or why I’m so skeptical of people. Think about it, did you give me reason to be skeptical?

Yes. Thats right. People suck!

“Ahh, man, I hate my mum! She won’t buy me ____________”

Why don’t you get off of your arse and earn your own money? How about that?

“Where’d you get that”

“Mum bought it me”

Some kids are so lucky. They have pretty much everything handed to them on a plate. And they just take and take and take. And then theres the rich kids with a silver spoon in their mouth who has no idea about the value of the pound. Let alone earning it.

Yet some of us, are struggling to put food on the table and pay bills, living paycheck to paycheck, and are at risk of losing jobs in this so called “credit crunch” which means no food, no paying bills, no paying mortgage = homeless? Some people don’t realize just how lucky they have it?

What about those poor souls in Haiti? I bet none of the kids [especially older ones] bothered donating their pocket money that their parents hand them to go spend on lavish goodies to the Haiti fund. What if one day, their family lost their fortune, or they turned 18 and their parents said, okay, you’re on your own now, I want you out of here by the weekend, no more pocket money. What would they do? They’d be fucked, thats what. They’d go leech at a best friends house for God knows how long before getting a crappy job which barely covers their own food costs, let alone what they’re adding on to the bills of whatever poor soul they’re living with.

Now, I’ve never had everything handed to me on a plate, but my parents have never seen me go without either. I’ve never had an abundance of expensive, fashionable clothes, all my clothes nowadays were pretty much dirt cheap or on sale. And I don’t have a huge range of them either. I used to be so good with money, I’d save every penny when I was little. I knew the value of a pound. On the occassion, I’d spend it on something I wanted and saved up for, or put my hand in the jar and treat myself. Its not a bad thing now and then. But lately, I don’t even know where the hell my money is going. I’m paying my way, paying my contract and whatever else and its all gone. Its THAT easy for it all to be gone. People say to me, omg you get £350 a month? Thats loads! I get like £200 on EMA! Dude, you’re in college, your parents pay for most things, you know you don’t spend your EMA on school supplies. I CAN’T go to college, I CAN’T work, and without my £350 a month, there would never be food in the fridge. Its just THAT easy to spend money in the home, but those who’re students and such barely need to worry about it.

I’m not knocking students who keep their heads down and genuinely do work hard. Can’t knock that all. Theres nothing wrong with trying to make a good future for yourself. So why not think about saving? Parents aren’t ones to fill their children in on all the finacial details, but unless you’re one of the lucky rich kids, or well off as previously mentioned, your folks are probably having difficulty. Start buying your own “luxuries” and don’t make your parents buy them. Don’t buy some yourself and make your parents buy some too. If you want something, bloody save for it. If there isn’t anything you particularly want or need, put it in a savings account, let it collect some interest, don’t just spend it because you have it. You never know when you might need that money, one day you may even need it to keep food in your belly or a roof over your head.

You say you’re an adult, you want to be treated like an adult, but adults don’t rely on their parents for their lavish goodies. They don’t get everything on a plate from mummy and daddy. So if you want to be treated like an adult, start acting like one! </rant>

So yeah… I’ve not updated much lately. Appologies but my health has taken a horrible dip. Pretty much stuck in bed.

Which is like ahhh!

Because I have to go to the jobcenter later on today :/ Fack.

But yeah. Thats actually pretty much it for my update. I went to buffet island the night before last and wanted to blog about that but I don’t have the energy tbch. So… good night!

I think I’m going to give up on my website.

Just get a flickr pro account and put all my photography up on there as I don’t vector too much anymore…

Though I’m going to keep it for blogging, of course. I love blogging. Well… I don’t know actually, but if this place disappears, remember for in the future, contact me at twitter.com/talei or talei.deviantart.com, I may move my blog to free wordpress. I’m using nowhere near my quota here. But hey, we’ll see in the future. I’m unsure at the moment. I have a general splash page up now…

Photography gallery is horribly out of date because it hates me but I genuinely am not overly bothered anymore… I don’t know whats up with me. Not like me. :/ *Sigh* I just don’t see much point when I’m not a professional, to be completley honest. It was my obsessive compulsiveness and desire to seem professional that caused me to create the site in the first place, and I’ve grown up since then. So we’ll see. I’m unsure if talei-uno.com will live past two years old.

Thoughts?

Just a little bit. But the exaggerating about it is getting incredibly tedious!

The photo was taken on my way to the shops a few days ago, we’ve had snow meltage and more snowfall since. It was minus 6 degrees celcius and to be completley honest, I was not cold at all. Except maybe my hands did get a little chilly. Adam kept complaining his feet were going to drop off. He wasn’t wearing weather appropriate shoes… so he was to blame. Haha. All the snow was like.. padded down, so it was like walking on a softish yet firm, white street. Like walking on an earth sized boob or something. People have really been exaggerating!

Although, when we got to the store-fronts, it was rather icy and quite slippy and we witnessed many an epic fallovers to the point where it wasn’t even entertaining anymore. Still, needs must, had to buy essentials. We’ve kept shoveling our front path as it steps down to our house so that we don’t get snowed in. Why don’t other people have the common sense to do the same wherever possible? I’m sure if more people did it, a lot less people would be snowed in! Of course, if ALL the snow comes overnight, it can’t always be done.  But still, just cus it doesn’t seem like a lot at the time, you KNOW you’re expected to have more snow. Who gives a shit if its cold! Put some more layers on and get shoveling, it’ll stop more bitching in the long run. I rather be cold then snowed in and starving thanks. Where is the common sense people?

Still, I feel bad for the elderly who’re running out of essentials because they’re snowed in, or too scared to go out because of getting snow-balled by youths, or slipping on the ice. Bless them. Thankfully, people are trying to make sure that they’re not going without, though. Which is nice.

More snow came over the weekend.

I don’t mind the snow, only, this is playing havoc on my body and it can’t cope. I’ve had to keep away from the laptop as I’ve been stuck in bed all day today, pretty much unable to move and out for the count. My health has gone down the pan the past few days and the weather really does not help at all. I need to get one of those blue light boxes that people with SADs use and stuff. The specialist at the hospital said it should help me a great deal, and face it, I have nothing to lose, so I’m going to get one when I can. He told me to speak to the doctor who comes to see me about it but I’ve heard nothing from them lately. They said they’d call to make an appt in the new year but nothing yet. :/ I may have to call them myself. I hate doing that. *sigh*

Despite being in bed all day, I’m still exhausted and want to sleep, though my hips and back really hurt. So off I trot!

So previously, when I was having the whole, oh my god, I can’t log in, my site is destroyed crap before regarding my wordpress blog, I was talking on Google Wave. Robbie questioned why I wasn’t using wordpress for my main site. And after much deliberation, I have decided, soon, I will do! When I can figure out the folio theme like the back of my hand and such, I’ll convert it in to portfolio style wordpress. Yay!

What about this blog? Its here to stay! It’ll stay on its little subdomain, seperate from the main site, website updates will be posted directly to there from now on. And I’ll be posting up my project 356 posts… hopefully. Depends which theme I use.

Old galleries will remain for archive purposes. I just hope I’m not too image heavy for this… I guess I’m finally gonna use up my quota. Which is AGAIN up for renewal in June or July. Can’t believe my website has been up for a year and a half. Wow. Seriously, its been that long! Time flies. Atm I pay 90p a month paid yearly, at this rate, I may have to upgrade.

…suck

And also are awesome at the same time.

I feel needy and clingy. This usually only happens just before and for the first day of my “monthlies” but its lasting longer. This time… its incredibly intense. Its taken me back a bit. Thankfully, Adam doesn’t seem to mind it. Thank GOODNESS. I’m always concerned that my horribly intense moodswings might scare him off. But quite the contrary. Today… well, yesterday now as its 4:10am. [Why I'm up so early, I'll explain shortly.] Adam was amazing. I was a little demanding and rather needy but I couldn’t have asked for any more than he did. He gave me his full, undivided attention, didn’t play his DS, he went to as I left the room to go pee, but I asked him not to and so he didn’t. Which made me really happy, then lots of cuddles and snuggles and kisses ensued and I felt a little like we were the only people in the world. Insert lots of cheesy love stuff here.

I felt so warm and safe lying on his chest wrapped up in his arms. And it was lovely him rubbing my skin and he gave me a back rub and touching me without the intentions of getting in my knickers… for a change. :p Nothing sexual which was truly amazing. I don’t think I’ve ever really felt this loved in my entire life and through our entire relationship, though also the hormones don’t help the big cheesy, loved up puppyness. Haha, I’m such a sap. He has work 2-6pm tomorrow… sorry done it again. Later. Will get to see him about 6:30… hopefully. Really hopefully. Its driving me mad though. I want to see him so badly. And this sensation is driving me up the wall because I see him every day! So some hours aren’t going to hurt. However it makes it really nice when I eventually DO get to see him.

Yeah, this is going to be an Adam post. Haha. I love his big brown eyes, his lovely arms [which, are totally gorgeous, especially when he flexes, omg yum!] which wrap me up and hug me, his lips that cover me in kisses, his chest that I can bury my head in. <3 He is such an amazing, special guy. Sometimes he beats down on himself and it used to annoy me a little at first, but now, it just makes me sad, because some things are true, but the main reason for it is because he doesn’t have enough confidence in himself to change it and no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to help that, but that is down to him, I fell in love with him for who he is, he doesn’t have to change, especially for my sake. I really couldn’t ask for anything more, I really couldn’t. I’m so lucky. I really am.

So why am I up at 20 past 4 in the morning? Well, I’ve been up since about 10 past 3 actually. I woke up in cold sweats, tummy pain both cramps and weirdly… hunger pains. These Zydol… I’m unsure if they’re doing me good or bad. They’re getting rid of most of my tummy pain, but driving my head barmy. Like dizzy, out of it kinda loopy woo. I can’t really explain but its probably kinda like being high or something. >.> I’m worried I might end up  getting dependant. That is if, I’m not already, because I’m sitting here and I really want to take more even though I’m not really in pain, because while I hate the dizziness and such, I quite like the feeling they give my head. On top of that, its been 4 years since I’ve been to sleep and really felt like sleep, and while atm I’m only sleeping for a few hrs at a time, the sleep I’m getting feels really damn good, like proper sleep.
After this entry, I’m going back to bed, and I’m going to refrain from taking any more of those pain killers unless I’m in agony again. I mean later on after I wake up. I am NOT going to take any before I go to bed. No sirey. I think I need to make an appointment with the doctor regarding me suffering side effects though and re: the concerns I might be getting dependant. But really, I’ve only been taking them 2 days and not even constantly! I think when I get over this sensation though, I might be fine… but still worth talking to the doctor. *Nods*

Now, I’m going to try get back to sleep and then tomorrow, I will see what I can do as to arrange or tidy up my room. Well I say I’m going to, but knowing me, my mood will change in the morning and I probably won’t be arsed, or I might sort out my shelves and think heyy, screw the rest. Meh.

Night world!

Happy New Year everyone!

New years resolutions?

Mine?

To get down to my ideal weight. Means loosing just over another stone, though loosing a little more wouldn’t be bad, I wouldn;t complaining, but I want to get down to ideal at least. As long as I don’t lose too much and go to underweight. :’) Then its all good. I dun think that’ll happen though. Haha. So thats all good. Just want to get down to my ideal BMI.

To get over my fear of busses. I think I’m making a good start on that one.

To cut back on my bad language. I swear too much.

To be tidier and more organised. My room is a mess, but I didn’t tidy it up for the new year and I’m not up to it today… does that mean I broke my resolution already?

Anything you plan to complete this year? I’m going to be doing the 356 Project. I know I’m going to struggle with it but I’m going to try my best. Even if I take a piece of crap with my phone, as long as I document every day. :’)