Blogging about whatever I feel like, whenever I feel like.

I mean..Missus.
Wutever.

Been feeling totally lousy. I did the backdated entry about that failure that was college. I had a few other entries I planned on posted but I can’t be bothered, I’ll just update on the present, though I need to write one about the expo, cus I DID manage to go. =]
But it sucked, to put it in short terms.

Something soon should be good though. But I can’t say what till after it happens. ;]

I’ve been really fatigues. Fatigue wise, I didn’t feel too bad on sunday after the expo, in pain and stuff but not as tired as I thought I’d be but itsw finally caught up to me and I’m tired as hell. Yet, I’m in the mood to get stuff done. My room looks like a bombs hit it. Now, if this was 6 months ago, before my room was re-decorated, frankly, I wouldn’t have given a monkeys, but since mom and me spent a week decorating it together, its been at least relatively clean and tidy. Tidy enough to have a guest and not feel all that shameful, I’d say. But yeah, right not, its embarrasing. I mean woo, all my shelves are tidy as hell. I’m OCD when it comes to my books, so they’re always sorted nice and neatly. Earlier I tidied up my top shelf more and made room for my tarepanda box file. Which gave me a bit more room on my huge desk. I like a roomy desk. Now I can move my copics along so they’re not going to fall down the corner, but first, I have to sort all the crap on it. Since I went through the last batch of orders and mail, I knocked some stuff over and its just got messier and messier in my too-tired-to-move-let-alone-clean-ness. *Sigh* Messy deskness bugs me. Its weird, cus I never used to give a monkeys about the mess. Especially ‘cus I don’t do a lot in here.

You can see my Tarepanda box file there. =]
I often take desk pics, every time I re-arrange my desk, not sure why…*shrug* For the sake of it? XD
Twitter has made me start liking taking random pictures of everything and anything. Tbh, I like random pictures, its interesting. get to know someone just a li’l’ more from ‘em too. But thats what happens when you suck at life. XD

I’ve finally paid off mom.
I got a brilliant DLSR after xmas, but I had to borrow the money off of mom [skint from xmas ofc] to get it in the xmas sales, finally paid that off the other day, all £400 of it and £160 house keep. I didn’t do bad at all methinks. I didn’t think I’d pay her off till next month. Joooooooooy. So I owe her nothing till the end of next month when I have to give her £80 house keep as usual. ^_^
I decided that I’m going to treat myself to some new clothes and pajamas at next pay day.
Those of you who know me enough will know I live in pjs. Because of that, they get pretty worn. XD I only have 1 pair of jeans that accomodate my fat arse, and a pair of three quarters. My bust seems to have grown, so a lot of my tops don’t fit me now.
I seem to have lost just a little bit of weight from my stomach though. But I’m not sure, in actual fact, I was suffering from bloating for a while and stomach issues for like…half a month or so…I started eating a little better and stuff and its a bit better. I still want to lose actual weight. Bit by bit though eh. I’m not going to push myself for the sake of it and make myself ill again so I can lose 2 and a half stone in 2 months again because I’m wasting away in bed like a while back. Which I soon piled back on as fat when I started pigging on junk food for an energy fix then found out it was because I had M.E -_- Oh me. :# Worst part is that I can’t muster the energy to burn it off, most of the time. So its a no-win situation. But on the days I have energy and am feeling okay, I dance and excersize for as long as I can manage. Which is usually about 20-25 minutes. It used to be about 11 minutes. I’m going by the “viewing time” on the tae-bo cardio workout vid I use when I’m having a fit day. XD So theres some stamina improvement there I guess. You get the idea. Heh.

I’ve been collapsing more often lately. I think its a mixture of fatigue and stress. I feel like someones really rattled my cage, but not really any more than usual, so I don’t get why I’m so wound up. I’m like a coil atm.

A fair bit has been happening here, which is weird. Theres never “gradual” stuff, all the crap happens at once. ¬_¬

Also, I have the urge for a meal out at a chinese resturaunt, anyone? XD

Anywhoo, have to take my rubbish bag downstairs ‘cus tommorow is bin day but mebbe later, eh?
That, and my laptop is burning my leg. I’m sitting facing my pillows, all I can see is my pillows and the shelves to my left out of the corner of my eye, which is all neat and tidy, but if I turn around, oh the horrorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!