College?
Remember I said on the 4th, I’d be going to Moseley? I did well! And I didn’t bail out last minute!
I went. And was bored.as.hell. Really? It was terrible. All that stress and stuff for nothing, I started freaking out a little and had to come home though. But tbf, she told me it was till 2, lies, it was till 3. I stayed until 2 before she drove me home, after dropping off this other girl first, OUT OF THE WAY FROM THE DIRECTION OF WHERE WE WERE GOING when I repeatedly told her that I really can’t stand being in the car and that it fuels my anxiety, to top it off, till she was dropped off, I was completley ignored. Rude much? Completley. That made me angry. I was really freaking out, doing my best to hide it while Danielle was there, after she was dropped off, Samira started chatting to me to keep my mind occupied, when I said AGAIN about how uncomfortable I was, I got set on a guilt trip. Soooooo encouraging. Then, to top it off, I get home, realize how hard standing actually is, and my body pattern has been screwed up since. Yaaaaaaaaay. </sarcasm>
I tried to talk to Daniella there, but the stupid cow pretty much blanked me, then when I was talking to Samira, she butted in and started having a conversation with her, again, ignoring me. It was insanely rude. The only other person that spoke to me was this dude called Stuart, all he did was hit on me.
I lost a little more faith in humanity. And theres not much left of that anyway. *Sigh*
I can’t go again. Its taken its toll on my body, and its really not worth pushing myself for. If people were sociable, if it wasn’t totally lame, then yeah, I’d do it, because I’d be getting out, socializing and making friends and doing one of my favorite hobbies. These are the reasons that pursuaded me to try. But I was let down on all counts and horribly disturbed my body in the process. Not worth it. Definatley not worth it. Immodest maybe, but I’m worth damn more than that, and my health is way more important. Psh.
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